Piecing question

[want2bmarried]

I don't know how strong I am, its more survival. This bouncing back and forth in my life is finally physically and mentally waring on me and my children. As sad as I am, I know that if this marriage is meant to be it will happen even if I don't sleep with him, be there for his every whim, or go dark on him. If its not meant to be then I will be just that much farther out. Another funny (sort of) thing is that the past few times he has been here, other than the sex he was rather irritating to be around. He picked on me nonstop and everything I do or had been doing in my life is wrong or bad. He even thought I was "entertaining" other men because I had some beer in the fridge!!!! He actually was very angry about that. I finally can see what a miserable person he really is and blaming me and sucking me down with him is all part of the game.