Just getting started piecing it back

[jersting]

Thanks Oldfool.
You are right, patience is the key now. From my last post, more things have happened. Last night as a matter of fact, we spoke on the phone. It was a heated battle that I did not want but she would not let me out of it. I hung up on her and she called me back. She hung up on me and as hard as I tried, I could not resist calling her back. The last thing I said to her before she hung up on me for the last time is..." I said I would be your friend through this and you have made it impossible for me to be your friend. You have turned this into a love hate relationship and the way you are being with me, if I can't love you with all my heart, I can't even like you because of the way you are treating me right now. As much as I love you, I can't keep this up and I give up." She then hung up on me and we didn't call back. This morning she called and I let the voice mail get it. She left a message that she was sorry and she did not want this to happen to us. I did not call her back and she showed up at my place an hour later. She came in crying and saying she could not believe we let this happen. I told her that I did not want this to happen either, but we can get through it if we want to. She hugged me and kissed me on the lips and started to leave. I told her that I would blow off work today and spend the day with her if she wanted to. She said she had thought about that too, but she could not miss work today because she took off yesterday to be with the kids. To be completely hounest with you, at this point if we did not have kids, I would just walk away from her. I am at my wits end and I don't like the way my life is going right now but my two kids are keeping me hanging on. I don't want to have this attitude, but I don't see to where she has left me any other choice.