Just getting started piecing it back

[jersting]

Replying to CM GH and SFA,
W called last night and told me that the class she is taking is in no way another step toward D. I replied with I'm sorry I probably over reacted and with time I will know what is happening. She told me she was sorry for hurting me. I told her that I would be fine and she didn't have to worry about it. She has called me 3 or 4 more times since last night and she has hinted about us spending time together tonight. I have been wondering what to do about tonight of whether or not I should have something else to do. I have came to the conclusion that I am going to play it by ear. If we get together and things seem alright. I will stay awhile. If things take a turn for the worst I am going to have something that I have to go do.
As for my paranoia, I was able to go out and ride my dirtbike for a few hours today and I feel great. MX riding has been something that I have done since I was very young and I love it. I have not taken much time to do it recently because of the weather and every thing else going on right now. I am going to make it a point to go riding at least once a week. Even if I do end up divorced I will be fine. I know this now and I think if she is playing me, I will come out the better man because I allowed her to play me and I did not loose my spirit through it.
Thanks for the replies.