Hey Jersting, what the hell man? Dude, you must stop mentioning the D word. She did not imply anything about a D. In fact she keeps telling you she is not saying D, so quit freakling out. You have to learn to control your thoughts better my friend. Maybe you need to read back through your own threads and look at how far you have come. Maybe that would show you that things are ok in comparison to where they have been.
Let me show you what I mean my friend, when you touched her car, maybe you were right and she didnt stay home. Maybe she was at that friends house breaking down because of how her family is right now and being only a week away from Christmas. Maybe she is scared to death because she just wants her family and marriage back and its just not that simple.
You need to get your mind right and quick Jerst, before you make a huge mistake. In fact I would even suggest that you inquire about you taking the parenting class as well to show good faith with her. Also quit shouldering all the blame, try using we more than I . You both screwed up my man and that is ok. You are allowing your own insecurities to damage your progress, lighten up man. She does love you, she does want to work it out, you have to give her the space, minus the pressure, to do so.
