Just getting started piecing it back

[jersting]

Wife ended up calling me saturday afternoon to find out what time I was picking her up. She then called again about an hour before I was picking her up to tell me she felt like she had the flu and wouldn't be able to go to Christmas party. I was actually a little bit relieved because I new she would be uncomfortable and maybe a little grumpy. She called me later in the evening and asked if we could go Christmas shoping the next day. I agreed to go shopping with her. We went shopping and she wanted to come in to my place when we got back. She said we didn't have alot of time before she had to go pick up the kids and she wanted me to get in bed with her. Of coarse I did and it was nice. We snuggled on the couch a bit after and she left to go pick up the kids. The next day we had dinner at my place with the kids when she got off work. They left and I went to church. On tuesday she had a siminar for work and I took the kids to her place when I got off work. She got home shortly after us and started dinner. I was going to leave but she asked me to stay for dinner. She was very distant with me. She went out side to smoke and asked me to come out with her. I went out and messed up a little by asking her "do you know where I stand with you?" She replied yes and I asked if she would share with me. She just ignored me and we went back in. After a little while I decided to leave and she walked me to the door. I asked one more time if she was going to share with me. She said don't push, we are getting along good. I didn't say anything else. We hugged and I left.
I am having a hard time with this sitch. My patience are getting the best of me. I feel like she is just playing me to keep me around till after the holidays and she is going to go ahead with the D. I hope I am wrong, but with me feeling this way, it makes it hard to just go along status quo.