Hi jersting. I certainly can't give you any better advice than what GH and Sven have given, but I wanted to chime in w/ a few things:
1) Not to be an a$$ about it, but I would really, really like to have the sitch you have, as opposed to say, the one I currently have. I can certainly understand your frustration at your sitch, and wanting the uncertainty to end, but I can tell you that being in a state where it looks like the uncertainty is over doesn't feel too good either. I think you have a good chance at reconciliation, especially if you can follow the advice of GH/Sven.
2) I know you can do this too. You've been strong before, stay the course.
3) Your thread is showing up on my screen funny. It must be ~3-400 characters before the text wraps. Don't know why this is, but it's a little hard to read....
Take care, jersting.
Listen, absorb and act upon the advice GH gives.
S_O_T_S aka: Stoic_On_The_Surface
I can't quite get there cause my heart's forsaken me - KT Tunstall