Just getting started piecing it back

[jersting]

My WAW showed up at my house sunday morning at 2:30 am. She said that she realized that she loved me and she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me. We have not moved back in together because I have had so many words from her that I feel like I need to see action before we can move back in together. Since that night she is still not wearing wedding rings, she still has not called her lawyer to call off the D. I had the kids last night so she came to my house. I told her that I needed to talk when we had a couple seconds without the kids being right there. She said we would, but after I put them to bed, she feel asleep and woke up about a half hour later and said she wanted to go home and go to bed. I am begining to wonder if I really want this r or not. I know I love my wife and I want to keep my family together, but I don't want to love someone who does not love me. I am at a loss today. I did e-mail wife and asked if we could get together today while kids are at school so we can talk, but I have not heard back from her yet.


I'm looking for grasshopper's help with this, but will welcome any advice I get.

Wife and I are trying to put things back together. I stayed at house with her Wednesday night because she asked me to. We had a few beers and she decided she wanted to go to the bar where everyone goes the night before thanks giving. I knew it was a bad idea because in this small town every one knows everyones business and they all acted really strange around my wife. The only reason I agreed to go was that I knew she was testing me to see if I would be willing to go to my hangouts and hold her hand and let people know we are a couple still. She had heard about the girl I met a couple weeks ago and she wanted me to describe her to her so she could pick her out in the bar. I didn't describe the girl, I just told her that I would point her out if I seen her. We were there about 20 minutes and my wife went kinda goofy. We left and had the biggest fight we have ever had. she was cussing at me for talking to another girl and I lost it. I told her that I have never ever talked to another girl until she told me in front of 2 lawyers in our first D hearing that she wanted a D. I said that she was the one talking to someone else while we were married and it was BS that she was going to hold something like this over my head. I stayed with her that night and just kept telling her that I was here with her and if I did want something else, I would not be here now. She eventually cooled down and fell asleep. The next morning when we got up she acted like nothing was wrong at all. (go figure) Anyway we had a nice Thanksgiving dinner with her family and she asked me to stay again last night. I said I had some things to do at home but I would come back later. I asked her that if she was in bed when I got back would she want me to come in and snuggle with her. Her hessitated reply was we'll see. This upset me and I said I was going to leave and I didn't know if I would be back for sure or not. Well... I went back about midnight and when I crawled in to bed she just stayed on her side and I laid there for a while. About 1/2 hour later I woke her and said this was'nt right, it was just the way it was before the problem and she said I know I just don't want to talk now. She then scooted over by me and rubbed my arm. She fell back asleep holding my arm. This morning I walked her to her car when she left and she told me that she loved me. It shocked me to say the least. I told her that I loved her too and to be carefull on way to work and have a nice day. she has called me already today to see how my day is going and she is wearing her wedding rings. The next thing I would like to happen before I move back into house is for my lawyer to call me and tell me that she has cancelled the divorce or at least put it on hold. I am pretty sure that my wife has some sort of mental problem and she either needs to get it worked out or we are going to end up divorced because it is extremely difficult for me to stay in this type of sitch. I love her and I will do what I can, but I am afraid if I suggest counsiling to her for herself, she will go nuts on me.
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