Hello again Coco; Tina is giving you sound advice. I'd also say, dont spend energy now worrying about the what ifs of the future. You will only go round in circles and make yourself feel a whole lot worse, because you are repeating the idea that the only future is failure. This is precisely the opposite of where you want to go. So concentrate just on today. How you are, what can you do for yourself to make it a good day, (this exludes all stuff related to H of course). At the end of each day, no matter how yukky it felt, review it all, and focus on the best thing that happened - sunset, a flower, children laughing - they dont have to be big, just celebrate them. Save worrying about future problems, you have enough on your plate right now. May I also comment that I hope any changes you do make in yourself - are not for him, but for you? Stay with yourself in this! Keep your chin up! Saphire
