I know for myself, sometimes you feel like things are going well and other times you feel lost. hube01, my post might not help you much right now, but many of us feel that way at times.
One thing to remember is one day your thinking goes along the lines life sucks, not much changes and you see hope in little improvement. Some things aren't really improvements but maybe things we could be thankful for if we compared our situation to some one else's.
I look at my situation like I was a valve cap on a tire. With each rotation the cap moves up or down. At any given time, it could be up down or in one of many positions. The road the tire travels on influences how much the valve cap gets shaken. The elevation of the road determines how high or low the cap is in actual altitude.
Sometimes my valve cap is next to the road but the road is going up hill. Sometime my valve cap is at the top of the revolution on a level road. Sometime the road is going down hill.
What is important to remember, what ever direction you think your R is going, there will be up's and down's. This trip for many has not been linear or has it been at a constant velocity.
Some days a good deed will get you in the dumps and other days things just click and mini-miracles happen. Just ask Lil.
Another couple here, the NOP's were not making progress for a long time from what I have read. Then in a short time there were some big changes for the good.
