Had a couple mostly quiet days. H and I went and looked at a house to remodel, mostly his idea, although I would like to do it too. We will have to see how the money part comes together, and if we decide to actually tackle the project. He seems to run hot and cold on the whole thing. I don't know exactly where he is on it.
So mainly we have talked about that sort of thing, he did say something that was a bit off, "it would be good for us to have a project" but I wasn't sure what he meant so I asked, and he basically didn't mean anything hidden about that, just what he said, need to stop being so paranoid.
I went up and hugged him today, he asked what was wrong, and I said I just needed a hug.
I have a history of getting too obsessed with stuff like this house thing, he moves at a much slower pace than me, and has an if it was meant to be it will be type attitude, I get all nervous and worked up about it, and obsess. I need to overcome that, I think it ticks him off that I get all gung ho, and don't just relax and be patient. It is hard though because I would like a new house and if we bought this and remodeled it like we can it would turn out so beautiful. Essentially a 3 story craftsman 4 square type house. It need a lot of work however, basically this old house type work, gut the whole thing, save the feel and be true to the design, but there isn't a tremendous amount of stuff worth saving on the inside.
trying hard to be patient in so many areas of my life
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
