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this saddness of his is getting me down. I know he is in a funk, I don't know why. He had been assigned to plan some time for us at our last counseling session, and he cancelled it because he needed some quiet at home time. All stuff I understand. I know he has been feeling sick, I know he has been feeling down, but not talking to me is making me crazy. It isn't like he is avoiding talking to me, he just has very little to say.

It is doubly frustrating because it is Christmas. I suppose he doesn't want to see my family. I guess I should let him off the hook and let him back out if he needs to.

Very frustrated today, I am sick of this, I need some reassurance and pats on the back too. This isn't a one way street, but gosh he is sure acting that way lately.

You know I can only do so much, I am hanging on by my fingernails, I am and have been on the run constantly the last 2 weeks, I am pulling all the weight and trying my hardest to make this a good holiday for the kids. But I can't pull all the happiness weight too. I jsut need a bone, you know what I mean. I also need to vent, so glad this place exists.

Well still have stuff to do, surprise, off I go.

Maybe gloomy gus will smile today