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okay I will bitch about her here and you can do the same

It is a new type of "work" and I am slowly getting my bearings. I am learning to not take everything personal, I am also learning how my seemingly innocent ticks like me asking "what are you thinking?" he took as an invasion, of my trying control him and not even letting him have his own thoughts. I was just trying to make conversation. I am a talker and he is less so. Kind of shows the extreme his mind went to, to feel like everything I did was manipulative, I honestly don't feel like I was trying to change or control him, I often called him for advice on stuff and took his advice, but I guess that is different, and he probably saw that as clingy, although to be fair we haven't discussed it. Sometimes it makes me feel like he only saw/sees me as this horrible person. That makes me sad.

Had a moment of feeling like I do have some power today, have felt very powerless since he bombed me, but I do have choices too, and I realized that today again, made me feel better. I can be a participant and not a victim, because he doesn't hold all the card, I have some too.

well have to go pick up the kiddos and get busy with their activities.