Thanks Cat03. I would have responded earlier, but my head has been all over the place. It's been a pretty sh***y week for me. For the first few days, I thought I was going to have a nervouse breakdown. I cried, uncontrollably, but not in front of my children. My H and I have been pretty good about not letting the kids see. H has been good about answering my questions. Is it wrong for me to keep asking the same questions over and over again? I keep re-reading the e-mails from the OW. Its just not adding up for me...I dont know if I am looking too hard, or it's really how my H says it is...which is they mostly talked. But her letters reflect more than that. I was doing ok today and then when it got closer to the time he had to go to work, my mood changed drastically. When the H called from work, he could tell, so he wanted to talk..as we both agreed we would do when either of us was feeling down...and naturally the convo went right to 'did you see the OW? did you have break with her...' Right away he went into defensive mode and asked why I was attacking him. He said he hasnt seen or talked to her. I didnt think I was, but that's how he felt. I feel like I am in a catch 22...when it gets more difficult for him..he will go running right back to her. Its completely out of my contro. Is this post all over the place like my head? I am feeling really crappy and depressed right now. When will this all end?
