Thank you so so much for replying to my post,, I do not know where they came from but the tears did not stop coming as I read your post COG,, I feel very blessed that you would take time to post to me,, you seem so full of wisdom, I love to read your posts. I agree my son will make wonderful memories it is me who is more scared than him...I am PETRIFIED... JUST TYPING THIS I AM CRYING LIKE A BLUBBERING IDIOT.... I do feel scared but I will accept it and embrace it and work thru it..MY SON IS MY LITTLE ANGEL FROM GOD JUST WHEN HE SMILES THE ROOM LIGHTS UP AND YOU KNOW IF YOU WOULD HAVE SEEN his little face when he said he wants to go to Mexico just so he can fish with his Dad and his Grandpa,, he made my heart melt. He almost made me cry, I had to hold back the tears.
You hit the nail on the head and I honestly had no clue where the fear was coming from or the nervousness.

And you know what Christmas is my Favorite time of year and after all I am very spritual and pray alot ever since I was a little girl,, and then my Birthday is three days later,, so yes a BIG GIANT OUCH.... ( to his Family it is not as special)He did this also 3 years ago and it was painful and I did ok.... as a matter of fact my H said he missed me terribly. this time I am choosing to not go thru the pain and not cry and make the best of it,, bake cookies, go to the YMCA with my girls and go to church on Christmas Eve and just be thankful that I am alive and healthy and have so many blessings and that most of all God does love me... aside from all the pain I have gone thru . I have grown so much and I intend to keep growing and he blesses me everyday with being humble and never giving up and also Beautiful people like you COG and many others here who take time out of their day to respond to me,, I know there is a God and he loves me and he does bless me I just have to watch for the blessings , big , small or tiny they are always there.

I hope to put up our tree this weekend and start decorating too,,,

You are also right about the Tattoo and actually he does tell me to call more than I mention it and today we found out they have closed so he will have to go elsewhere,, and you know I wouldnt mind it so much it it was not her NAME,,,As much as I have tried to keep my Ego out of this I must admit it does hurt but you are right let go and let GOD,,,Thank you sweetheart you are a very Wonderful Man and may God keep blessing you ,, I am so proud of all the things you post,,, you are truly Amazing an inspiration...
God bless,,,,