My H just left angry and I teared up a little but I let Him go and he did not see me upset,, he is stressed from work and my son threw up so I was trying to help him clean up his mess and I was a little frustrated and my H dd not like this,, I do notice that when I am like this it seems to set him off, sometimes I feel like I always have to walk around Super Happy or he cannot deal with it,,,,

I dunno ,,,,But I am not going to sit here upset like I would have in the past..I cleaned the bathroom and I cleaned our room some and I will go to bed shortly,,,,

He is also going to go to Mexico in a few weeks and stay there over Christmas and my Bday is 3 days after Christmas,, so is hurts a little but I really did not want to go ( so why press the subject?) and he will be going alone ( his choice he did not invite me)and he asked me if I wanted him to take one of the children with him and I told him no,, now my 7 year old wants to go with him and my H said that was fine ( my son said he would like to go fishing with his Dad and his Grandpa) but I am nervous @ it,, my son gets sick easily,, and my inlaws do not have heat or a hot water heater and I am scared my son will get sick,, It gets cold for a few days sometimes a week around the time they will be there,, any advice on this subject will be greatly appreciated....


Also my son has my temperment and has never been alone with his Dad for 3 weeks,, I am very nervous and it is hard to explain why....


WE are doing well in our R but I see my H needs to learn to deal better with his emotions,,, I hope he will try to work on this and when he goes to Mexico ,, I wil miss him but I will keep working on me and get caught up on housework , read, start working out again and enjoy myself,, I promised my Girls I would take them to the YMCA OFTEN,, THEY ARE VERY EXCITED ACTUALLY!

I AM JUST AFRAID HE WILL TURN UGLY AGAIN while he is there he gets like Jeckyl and Hyde,, so hot and cold and it is exhausting,, I do feel like this time I will be stronger....and he can act up if he wants to but he will have to keep his gift this time I hope to not take it on,, like last time.
ONLY TIME WILL TELL AND HE STILL HAS THE D*MN TATTOO HE KEEPS SAYING HE WILL GO AND THEn HE DOESNT call the next day.... BUT HE DOES TELL ME TO CALl AND MAKE APPOINTMENT,, THE TATTOO PARLOR SEEMS TO NEVER ANSWER WHEN I CALL? I DUNNO WHY?

Well enough rambling for one day God bless you all, thanks for listening....