Thanks Muddle. You're so good to give me reality checks. I was put on call tonight, so I may or may not go to work after all. Sitting on the sofa with a head cold, trying to be strong in the face of no warmth. at. all. He's so cranky tonight. He's furious that I was called off work for the 3rd time this week. Long story, but the same old struggle for income, and a reminder of his 'failure'. I started to say something a minute ago and he said "don't try to make me feel better", so I said okay. and here i sit.
I just know this is not God's will, it can't be. I hope He will intervene in a big way here. For me. In me. Through me. In spite of me. That was my prayer all of last December/January, and it is now what I will pray again. for both of us. I also asked Him to be bold in my weakness. Funny how you forget all that after the enormity of the crisis wanes. Shame on me.
As H said a day or so ago, in the last R talk, it should not keep taking the End of the World to turn my head and make me want to change. I agree. Will probably do a blog post about that soon, since it stuck in my head.
I will continue to re-read your posts and good words to me. Thanks for the common sense.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
