Thank you Muddle and Aud, so much for your kind words, and Muddle as always - your encouragement and 2x4. You are RIGHT, but wow, emotions have a stong pull when you are freaking out. Thanks. I do need to quit hovering, etc. I even started checking his email again b/c it SO freaked me out that he pulled back so fast. I quit TODAY, even though I was tempted to search to see if he started a new email acct I don't know about, etc. The snowball effect of snooping. Again, ya'll know. This does me NO good. I cannot manipulate the outcome of this in any way. I can only do what I can do for me, and be as authentic as I know how to be, while praying NONSTOP for a breakthrough.
I work night shift tonight for the first time in many, many weeks. I used to call H every night after the kids were in bed, but unless he mentions it as I leave (as before), I will not call tonight (sigh). Hate that detachment thing (on both sides of the M).
Thanks for hanging with me, guys. I sure appreciate you.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
