Oh BI, I am so sorry you’re in this terrible place. I too traveled across the country to finally know for sure, and that was an experience I will never forget. Forgive, I’m working on but forget, never.
My counselor way back when I had no idea what was going on in my M once said it to me this way (and it makes much more sense now): So if he’s not available to give you what you need, how can you take care of yourself?
You have to ask this of yourself and truly dig deep for the answer. Remember the faith step? Find that courage in yourself. You can do it. You are worthy. You are loved.
