OK guys, I've been off sick today and feeling kind of weak. So I've been working my butt off on the BB! I hope I've been able to help some people. There's always so many you want to be there for but...you do what you can, I guess. Tonight, I will muster some energy and attempt BR dance. If you miss a class you're kind of screwed for the next class. So, I'll go, do what I can and sit out if I have to. My W is the Iron Lady and when she's sick, it doesn't matter, she is there. So I don't imagine there would be much room for empathy if I didn't go! It'll be good to move around I think. I'm still not sure what to do re the poem. I've got time. Maybe I'll write a couple more and see which fits best. She actually has a collection of my poetry which I gave her as a birthday gift, so I know she keeps any little addition I give her. She never comments on them so I stopped really giving her many. She did tell the girls once that "Daddy was a good poet", so the girls tell me. We'll see. I keep having to push that weekend with OP out of my head, especially when I'm ill. It really brings up alot of feeling. I start thinking about the old ultimatum again. Part of me wants to say "If you go, don't come back" boy, that would be helpful I think in the new year I will contact a Solution Focused Counsellor I know of. It's time to get outside help. I've gone as far as I feel confident on my own. Maybe there is stuff I should be doing (or not doing) that I'm avoiding. I don't know. There have been some good changes in the past few months and I shouldn't downplay them. I mean, my W is taking BR dance lessons with me, she asked me to a work banquet, we ML twice in the late summer. Her contacts with OP seem to be relatively few and not growing. Her going away, of course, is a real kick in the nuts but...what is is! Thanks for checking in on me fellow DBers.
I think in the new year I will contact a Solution Focused Counsellor I know of. It's time to get outside help. I've gone as far as I feel confident on my own. Maybe there is stuff I should be doing (or not doing) that I'm avoiding. I don't know. There have been some good changes in the past few months and I shouldn't downplay them. I mean, my W is taking BR dance lessons with me, she asked me to a work banquet, we ML twice in the late summer. Her contacts with OP seem to be relatively few and not growing. Her going away, of course, is a real kick in the nuts but...what is is! Thanks for checking in on me fellow DBers. 