1210, this turn of events is not a real surprise to me. She's done it before. When things start looking positive, the rug gets pulled! Is it two steps forward and one back? This morning I rolled over and had this urge to hold her in my arms, so I did (did I try for sex? sure did! Did I get sex? Sure didn't). We lay there in each others arms for almost 1.5 hours. I held her close and stroked her hair and cheek. It was wonderful. At one point, tears streamed down my cheeks but I just wiped them away and held on. When we got up I felt so good inside. Whenever I hold her all the bad just seems to disappear. Today she is in a super mood. Did this have anything to do with it? Who knows and what does it matter, today was just a good day. Lastly, our anniversary is Xmas eve. I'm thinking of writing a nice poem and having it laminated. Nothing deeply romantic but something about the wonders of life, love or whatever strikes me. Poetry is a talent I discovered thanks to this sh!tty sitch, one of the real blessings that has helped get me through. 1210, thanks for checking in on mbro. Your post was more than I expected. I hope it helps him and if not, its his choice!
WOW...you got married on Xmas eve...how romantic...that is wonderful.
As far as the plaque with your poem...awesome, very personal and loving, I like that very much!!!
Hey, let me tell you...your W was very much aware of you holding her and stroking her hair...I've been her, we just keep our eyes closed, so you guys don't think we know.
If she didn't like it...she would have sprung out of that bed, you would have fallen out...
Yes, 1210, we were married on Xmas eve. It may be romantic but have you ever tried to find a place that's open to celebrate on Xmas eve? What a pain in the butt that is! So I guess if we ever get divorced then I won't have to do that anymore. There's always a silver lining, isn't there
I've been looking through my inspirational quotes tonite, here's a few that I like:
"suffering is not holding you, you are holding suffering" OSHO
"Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional" Anonymous
"Happiness is knowing that you do not necessarily require happiness" William Saroyan
"the universe holds as much good for you as you can take, but you can only take what you give" Ernest Holmes
1210, Hey, was the show you were watching the "Get Ben Cable" telethon? I didn't know Tom had arranged air time yet! He works fast, doesn't he. Thanks for the quotes. I found it very helpful to spend my time collecting these kinds of quotes rather than sitting and immersing myself in my own misery, especially early on in the sitch. It is very empowering I find. One thing I have been doing over the past year is trying to feel things and let them go, not always successfully. Often I find my interpretation of what is happening e.g. my W's actions and motivation turn out to be complete crap. It's easy to take things and filter them through your emotional screens and then declare you know the truth BUT the truth is you don't! That's why DB is so wonderful, it is based on actions that either improve your sitch (and if so, repeat them) or don't (stop doing them). There's no need to know every minute thought and motivation of the other party involved. So, again, thanks for dropping in and did you actually pledge anything to the OSU fundraiser? I only have Canadian dollars, what can you do!!!
OK guys, here is the anniversary poem I've written, what do you think? Does it stink? Is it too much? Is it too pursuing? It's how I feel but...
Loving You
Beauty lies within the eyes
Of one who meets your gaze
Gentleness flows from the very being
Of one who knows your touch
Poetry springs from within the soul
Of one who witnesses your grace
Possibility dwells within the mind
Of one who shares your dreams
Joy leaps sprightly from the breast
Of one who adores your dance
Bounty is held within the heart
Of one who treasures your love
I like it but let 1210 or someone who has cable answer you questions. I can only answer the one about "Does it stink?" The answer is hell no. It is from the heart and expresses how you feel.
Ben 32 STBXW 29 3 kids (D1,S4,SD8) (1 dog 5months) Status: Fighting for the Kids.
"The only thing we know about future developments is that they will develope."
