Hello all: ONE and A HALF DAY and counting until H and I land in Retrouvaille.

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Okay, already, enough is enough. Will he just Go, please go. I am soooooooooooo soooo tired of listening to him.


I think I might have confused everyone with this lament. I wasn't talking about H going to Retrouvaille, He IS going. I was talking about, his whining, second guessing, 20/20 hindsight attitude about everything. He makes a choice and then proceeds to negate it. I'm so tired of this, I was saying would he please just go(leave) instead of telling me every reason why he doesn't want to BE with me or doesn't want a relationship or blah blah blah.

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I'm not sure that I won't make it until these sessions are over before I hit the ground running. Is it fear on his part or is it ...? I just don't know.


Yesterday after I wrote the above I went and said to H: "The reason I think you are still sleeping in the studio and are furious about giving up your Saturday night is because you are still in a relationship with OW. If that's is true, that's no problem, I just don't want to go to Retrouvaille if you are still involved with her. He said that wasn't the case.

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I have been affectively demantled. I wouldn't trust my instincts regarding him for anything.
I also told him this and a few other things.

We had a pretty good talk and I actually felt much better after our talk.


I pray that we both make it to and through this weekend.(and little S9, who is distraught that we are going away) I pray that the healing will begin. I pray for everyone here as well.


Hi Barb,
I hope I catch you before you go on your cruise. Give everyone a hug for me and I hope you all have a great time.

Thanks for your prayers. H has recommitted to go, it’s me that is just so disillusioned that I find it hard to believe things will be improved by going to the weekend, given my H’s attitude. As far as I can see, this is a last ditch effort on my part. THIS IS IT! That’s a lot of pressure for a weekend and 7 follow up sessions.

I actually do acknowledge all of my H’s concerns. I don’t get mad when he voices them about the weekend. I just tell him I understand and that he doesn't have to go if he doesn't want to and I then remind him why we both decided to go in the first place.

Thanks again for keeping up with me, you are a sweetie. I’d love to visit with you again someday and I think it has to be way longer!

Andrea,
Yes, I think you are right. What you posted above is a good way to look at it. Take care and hang in there.