Just checking in and seeing how things have been going with you.
I was just reading your last post and I think that you probably have the right attitude. Just hold onto that right attitude and don't go back to any questioning or self doubts. You are someone who could really benefit from the 'act as if' theory. Act as if your H is perfectly normal and that everything in time will work out. As soon as you stop believing that everything will be alright you go back to self doubting, and it spills over into how you deal with your H. I hope Retrouvaille really offers some help to you two as I think yours is one of the MLC marriages that will survive. I do feel however that your H has some other major issues to sort out for himself. Your marriage though shouldn't be one of them.
I am trying to keep myself busy while slowly moving forward on D. Luke is dealing with this as if this is just a business contract to be terminated. You know, I am in this contract, I don't want to be, and how much is it going to cost me to get out. Yet he still behaves as if we are the best of friends, he even brought me flowers last week again! I am trying to ignore it all and just get on with me life.
It has been raining here all day. So I have been confined to the house. I am researching areas to relocate to when I can hopefully move next summer.
BTW, What was the name of that soya bean dish we ate last March. I found some fresh soya beans at the market the other day and I want to cook them at home for the girls.
