Kanshaw-It's Rachael. Remember me? Well, my H is hime-has been for 7 months. Its not paradise and I still have so much anxiety. I too have to watch what I say and how I say it, as he can get very defensive. OW is supposedly outof the picture now although he did admit to talking to her a couple of weeks ago when she called hiom abou ther house. He told he he could not fix it. He is suppose to be writing her a letter stating he can't have anymore contact with her. I'm still so mistrustful. Loretta, you said it was still hard after your H came home. It is. They are not the same for a long time. Mine still has periods when he distances and I will ask him about it and he will say he does not realize he is doin git and then tries to change. The problem mainly is me. I still have SO much anxiety fearing he will leave again or that its not really over with the OW. Ever since we were separated I have had anxiety disorder and I can't seem to shake it. The only peace I get is when I sleep. Its been very hard but I am up around him. He couuld not stand for me to be depressed or withdrawn. How do you find some kind of peace while going through this-It is so very scary to me, and I'm so tired of allthe anxiety that goes with it..Rachael
