Just some venting, i posted earlier about talking to my sister, and the assumptions, relatives asking her things for quite ahwile.. anyway I talked to her today and it all came up again about how she thinks my h made bad choices and should not have close frienship with opposite sex...I told her no one knows but the two of us what has really happened in our m, and that I am angry that people and relatives have come to her and "told" her that they saw h out with ff. They are concerned for me.. bullsh**She does not want me to be buffaloed, although she knows my h is a decent man, he must be going through mlc, and that it all occured 3 years ago when he quit his job, and needed "her" to make him feel better.. Just where does she get off thinking all this??? The only thing I evere talked about with her was this spring I told her that he might leave, and that he had a ff that i was not sure about. I recently told her though that I had misjudged what I thought was going on, and that my emotions were taking over my thinking. I said that because people saw him out does not mean something is going on, she said if she saw a married male friend out with someone other than the w, human nature would make you wonder.I said and that is what is wrong in this society.I love my sister(I have another whom I don't get along with) and know that she would never want to hurt me or my h, but I am tired of the judgement that has been placed on him. I have played a role in this m faultering.

Later in the day h called me at work and I had to vent a little of what she said, he said did these people tell her that there were other people from work with them when they saw him, I said she implied that he was alone with ff.He said no.He also said that only we know what has occured and the rest is their problem. I told him that I was bringing it all up because I am angry and frustrated with what people say behind our backs, and not because I am doubting again what he has told me and I asked him if he knows that I believe him, he said yes.He again said this is their problems.When I talk to him, I hear the old h that I fell in love with, yet the new confident h that is discovering his own feelings.After talking to sister, for the first time in in a long time I thought for just a minute "what if he really is pulling something over on me".When will those feelings go away??When/if we repair our m? Maybe never, I don't know right now, I do know they are further and fewer between. Must be a good sign.
I feel better now that I journaled.
Sue