H caleld today and asked if he could come over tonight and do laundry and watch a movie. I made meatloaf, and d had gone and gotten a movie, so we played a few games of parchssi with kids before they went to work, then watched movie. Before h left d gave him a hug and said "I love you", and h responded back. I stood there fighting tears, h said why are you crying, d sid as she left, "Oh she crys alot lately", h just looked at me, and I said I was ok.Again he just kinda smiles his smile and left.Should I have said I am sad when you leave, or I would like just a tiny hug?? From what I have learned and read I should not do that, but who knows if that is what he is waiting for. This is where my patience gets tested, how are we going to start to mend, if we don't talk about r stuff? I have read dr, but somewhere someone has to make the first move, and I know my h, and that is not his nature to initiate the first move. Otherwise night went ok. I wrapped a few Christmas presents, got tree up.I do feel a peace that I have not felt in along time, and I can see h is much more at ease. So I do know it is for the best, I just wish I could have a glimpse of the future. Night Sue
