LL, you always sooth my soul with your kind responses. I am going on with my life. I am going to decorate for Christmas as usual, shop, I also do crafts and cookies and sell them at my work.A month ago I thought I would not do any of that this yeaer, then I woke up. I am going to go on as usual. I love creating things that other people get to enjoy.I also took quilting this summer, but that might be a good Jan., Feb. project.So, I think I am doing things for me. Do I want to go out and party, not really it's not me.Have fun yes. I guess I won't bring up any talks with h. But why am I having such a hard time comprehending that if you don't make contact with each other much, you don't bring up r talks, don't spend time together. then how are you going to start mending the m?? I am not it very long, so I'm guessing it all starts to unfold one way or another.It's like I want to work on it a little each day or week. I will be patient.We talked a little about money and I told him I should cancel cell phone as I don't use it except emergency. He said he is paying for it. He also said he looked at the chking act balance(he works at the bank) and saw it was low, and was going to put $ in it, then saw I got paid .I thought that was kind of him. I am realizing more and more he really does care about me, kids. We just lost it along the way. HAve a good weekend Sue
