Oh, LL you are a saint in my eyes, I wish your sitch were better right now, you are very strong to endure what you have, and with 2 small kids. I hope and pray that you can find the peace and closure that you need. You pointed so many things out to me about my h, that I seem to be forgetting. He has been very kind, why am I so afraid then that if i leave him alone, he might not ever want to return? That is something I guess I have to search and find the answer to.He is searching, and again my insecurities come out, that I am not going to be the one that he decides to want to spend the rest of his life with. Funny I feel so strong sometimes, but when you get right down to it, I don't know if I will be able to handle the rejection if he chooses to leave for good. Enough negative, the full moon has made everyone crazy today(throw in pms and I start thinking crazy things!!) Thanks for your wisdom Sue
