LL, you are right, I am still worrying about what to do, say, how to act. It has only been a week that he is gone, yet after 24 yrs together except for a few business trips he made, I found it hard to come home tonight, we always made pizza or ordered it out. I was doing some sewing nad h called (he had been to get groceries-first time by himself) and asked me if I wanted to go to late movie!!Of course I said yes, and it was a great movie. We talked quite a bit about stuff, not r talk, just other stuff, he seems so relaxed, yet I felt tense on being sure I said the right thing. I really need to work on just being the me he married, but I thought I have been and somewhere something went wrong, but not necessarly with me, as he said this is about him. Oh well, I told him to have a good day with church youth tomorrow and I would see him at night(meeting friends to hear nephew play in band)I am really very lucky and should appreciate what I still have. I even commented that I did not have much cash and he took $40.00 out and put on table. I am concerned about our money, as we struggled at times before (and I like to spend)and I don't see how we are going to maintain two households.I have to go back to our early years of really watching it. Sue
