Sue:
I hope you are feeling better today after that terrible moment that i had lived too a year ago...!!.. The difference is that my children are smaller (2,9, and 10) and they felt terrible and began to have crisis, sadnes and we all had to lived very anxious and sad moments together... But you know what, even that moments, even that suffer, we now are together as a familly... i really think i forgive my h about all that... about all that suffering my children had to live... i think i forgive his child and selfish actitude not helping me at all with my oldest D crisis... Bc i know whats the real man inside of him... bc i know he did many things just to hurt me, not realizing he was hurting his child... and that this actions were part of his teenager crisis and not to know how to resolve it...!!... Stay strong... give your child support and love... they will give you company and happiness...!!... my heart is with you and i feel your h so confuse about whats he is doing... i dont want to give you hopes.. but this is what i see by your post