Thanks Andy, you are always here with encouraging comments.I am going about life as usual, my good friend at work who knows the whole story can't understand how I can be so patient(she knows I am not the most patient person)I said if I fall apart and drive him away, then I will lose him for sure, and I don't want to do that right now. I said if it all turns out in the end that he moves out and is with ff, then I was right for the feelings that I have. I hope I will not hate him, as we have had 24 yrs and 2 kids.That is why I am calm knowing that it could go either way and preparing my-negative-self for the worse and hoping it will turn out the best. I really wish he would decide one way or another, but am going to make the most of the time he is still here.(the impatient side of me is creeping out). Bob, thanks too for your reply. True when we stop and foccus on what we have, how can we not find the strength to fight as long as we can. The trip would be great, I have never flown, and if it was closer to home I might consider it.Suppose anyone could start a get a way trip... See ya Sue
