Help, I am about to lose it, and I have not felt this way in a long time. H came home from church job, only home an hour and his friend calls, needs to borrow ladder, so of course he would not say, Maybe another time, no he loaded it up and off he went, I was cooking dinner, asked if he would be back to eat before going back to church, he said if he was hungry he would be. I guess I am fooling myself to think there is no A going on here. He has no problem saying no to me when I need something done, but I guess when you are with someone a long time it is easier to hurt them then the other person. I feel so angry towards her, yet he has made the choice to jump at her every call.I would like to call her up and reem her out, but what would that accomplish? Do I sound like I am trying to hold on to a M that maybe I should not be?? I am just looking for some kind of encouragement right now. Things had been going ok, until now, as I said earlier i feel like something has been said to put him in a down mood.Lord knows I have not been questioning or accusing, so I will not take responsibility for this one. I am going to go for a walk to clear my head, I am not ready to give it all up, yet that is how I feel right now. Bye Sue
