Andrea-It was good you kept you R talk about YOU and your feelings. I'm afraid of bringing the OW into it because of my feelings towards her and that would NOT be a good thing. He is acting as if she is out of his life for good the way he is treating me so I should not put her int front of his face again. I want it to be HIM that decides when to have that conversation-HIM to tell me she is nothing to him anymore. WE DO need to talk but not about "her". He is the type that does not like heavy R talks-what guy does?? He is between withdrawal and exceptance-I don't want to say or do anything that will put him further into withdrawal. The VERY best thing I can do for him is give him unconditioal love, appreciation and exceptance. We went out to dinner last night. It hit me this morning that I did not thank him for dinner-I took it for granted. He came home for a few minutes to get something-I took that opportunity to tell him I forgot to thank him for dinner last night. This is a 180 for me-he felt so taken for granted before we separated. I will not make the same mistake again! He will be appreciated and valued in this house! That is what the OW do-they make them feel so special...so, we have to do that so they don't go looking elsewhere for appreciation. I thank him for giving me the money to pay the bills, and little things I overlooked before. He told me he would call me later and asked what I was doing today! I don't have much of a life right now since I'm on leave from work but I try to get out of the house everyday. My life will be hectic once again soon enough once I decide wether to go back to work or go back to school. I'm leaning towards school unless I can find a job I really like doing. You said you work Andrea, what do you do? It's important to like what you do and I did not like my job anymore at all so I have to leave it one way or another even if I have to be a waitress it would be better than being in that corporate invironment! If I go back to school it would be to get my nursing degree. Adrian would have to support me fully then. We have to talk about that one. I think he will be ok with it as long as the money is good-He is a contractor and is doing very well but you never know in that business. I hate putting all the financial burden on him but he basically pays for everything anyway except groceries and couceling and my presciptions and gas, oh and the extra life insurance I have on him. He has to buy me a new car too-we are working on that now. Alot on his shoulders! Rachael
