((((Liz)))) So sorry you are going through this difficult time right now. Know that we are here to support you because we care.
I agree with the others here, your H is being so selfish and only cares of HIM, HIM, HIM right now. How can a man not care about his child...just makes me mad. He is not going to be there for you for support so it's time he sees what it is going to be like when you're not calling on him anymore. I KNOW how hard this is. Unfortunately, the fog is so thick right now, they can't see past themselves. When the fog starts to clear, he will see the world he's been missing on. It's taken me 11 months to finally let go and even now I have my bad days when I so desparately want to call but I don't. I find when I have no contact, I'm better able to focus on me and what is important in my life.
Liz, it's time you focused only on you and your kids. I know that God is watching over you and he will show you the path to better days ahead. Believe it. Stay strong. We are here if you need us.