Hey Liz hope I didn't bring you down! I also know what you mean about needing a break at times.
I know things are hard right now and you're going through some struggles, but I do believe things will get better for you. You're a bright, sweet person with a lot to offer...
Is there any way a friend could drive you somewhere to meet this guy or maybe you could take a taxi? (that way you can still GAL a little and have some nice adult conversation with an interesting guy).
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.