Hi all. Yes, I'm still alive...just trying to take life day by day and have been avoiding the board a bit because it was bringing me down.

I've had a pretty rough week for lots of different reasons. On Monday, S4 took a pretty bad fall and hit his head. He cut himself in two places (eyebrow, side of eye), bruised his chin and scraped up his nose. I called my xH right away, just to let him know we were on the way to the ER. I didn't even get my sentence out before he snapped at me that there was nothing he could do and said, "Just take him to the ER!" I said, "That's what I'm doing, I was just calling to let you know what's going on." He was a total d-ck, but what else is new? He talked a bit to S4 and then he asked me to let him know how it went at the hospital.

He called me 2 hours later and asked how it was going. At that point, I was still waiting for someone to take care of S4's wounds (which were determined not to be that deep), so I told him that. He was a bit nicer and apologized for not being there at the ER. I said, "I don't need you here, I can handle it. I was only calling to inform you that S4 was injured." He said he appreciated it and then mentioned he had to get back to work.

S4 is fine. The doctor used DermaBond on his cuts, which is basically like super glue. He was happy not to get stitches (this time last year, he got 6 stitches on his forehead).

My xH called on Tuesday evening and I did not answer. He left a message saying he was checking in about S4 and said, "You don't have to call me back, but if you want to, go ahead." I didn't.

Yesterday, my car broke down on the way to D13's school. I called a few friends, trying to hook up a ride to her school to get her and then arrange to get my car towed. I called xH to ask him what he thought about the car (gave him details about what happened; he used to be a mechanic). We talked a bit about it and he seemed frustrated. He said, "I don't have any money and I can't help you," to which I said, "I wasn't asking for help. I just wanted to get your opinion about the car." He told me it would be expensive to fix probably and I sighed and said that I didn't have the money and that I was frustrated. He reiterated that he couldn't help. I said, "You know what, I'm sorry I called and bugged you. I got this handled, thanks" and I hung up. He called back and left me a voicemail telling me he didn't appreciate my "f-cking attitude" and that it was rude for me to hang up on him. He said, "I want to know where you are so that I can come and get MY SON, because I don't want you gallivanting all over the city with him in tow." I called him back and told him that he didn't need to worry about S4, that he was safe and that someone was on the way to get us. I told him that I didn't need his help and again he said, "I'll pick up S4 if you need help, that's all I can do." As if that would help! Argh. He said something about how none of this was his problem and I told him I didn't say it was. I was so frustrated because I really wasn't asking him for help and I was accepting that he couldn't help... but he still kept going on about it.

I got a friend to take me to the laundromat (where I was going after picking D13 up from school) and then take me home afterwards. Another friend was offering to tow my car to his place, but couldn't do it until around 9 p.m. We drove over there at that time and my car was GONE. I called every towing place I could think of, plus the police and sheriff's departments...and my car was nowhere to be found. I filed a stolen car report, but at this point I still have not heard anything.

I left my xH a voice message early this morning to let him know that the car had probably been stolen and that S4's car seat was in there. He's picking S4 up for the weekend tomorrow and I wanted him to realize he would need to get a car seat beforehand. I didn't ask him to call me back; the message was purely informational. He called me around noon and I didn't answer. He left a message: "Hi, just calling to see what's going on with your car. Call me back, okay?" I waited three hours and called him back. He didn't answer, so I left a message: "Hi, calling you back. The car is still gone. Not much to update. Bye." I haven't heard from him since.

So, now I don't have a vehicle at all. I can't get my D13 to school (she goes to school 20-25 miles away, in another district). I can't get to job interviews! If I got a job, I wouldn't even have a reliable source of transportation. I'm just overwhelmed. I thought it was bad that my car was broken down, but now it's worse -- I don't even have it at all. I'm so upset that stuff like this keeps happening to me and yet I look over at my xH and OW and things just seem to be going well for them. When do they reap what they have sown? I don't have anyone to rescue me from my troubles, not like my xH does. I feel so very sad.

What's frosting on the cake is that I've been talking to a very nice man online for the last few weeks and we had planned on meeting for coffee this weekend. Now I can't even do that! I wasn't expecting a R out of this, by the way, but I was looking forward to spending time with a nice man. He has offered to pick me up and all of that, but I'm uncomfortable with that because I don't really know him that well. So much for my GAL attempt. I'm sure my xH would totally love that things are falling apart for me.

Anyhow, that's the update. Anyone care to donate to the Save Liz's Car Fund? Oh wait...I guess it's the Buy Liz a Car Fund now. *sigh*