I've been keeping up with your thread and my heart is breaking for all the pain you are going through. I haven't anything to add to the advice and comments already provided by others. All I have is this:
Sit in a chair, take your left hand and try to reach your back by going around the right side of your torso. Then take your right hand and try to reach your back by going up and over your left shoulder. Now, close your eyes and squeeze real tight for 5 to 10 seconds.
I'm sure everyone here wishes they could give you that hug in person...but we can't. Yet the imagination is wonderful and if you read the posts here and follow the instructions above, I'll bet maybe...just maybe...you'll feel our arms around you and the support that's being sent your way.
