Liz, you were my main support when I joined this BB. You will forever hold that place with me. I am so sorry things are feeling bad for you. You are such a strong gal. Wish we lived close. You are very fortunate to have the wonderful support you do here, you have received such great advice and feedback.
I understand not wanting to quit, and your love for your xH. Knowing that the bad outweighs the good right now, but still holding out hope. I know this all too well. I've found alot of help in the book Facing Love Addiction by Pia Mellody. It's one I've had for years, but have had a hard time facing full force (no pun intended, lol).
You have handled everything so perfectly. I understand finding it hard to GAL. I realize that I am somewhat avoiding putting myself out there too. Especially when I've had a strong PMA. It seems to give me a good excuse not to, or something. Sometimes, I think I must still hope to be "rescued" by someone in a way, and that is really tough to admit. At the same time, I don't want that, as I know how strong and independent I am. So, maybe we've been the rescuers.
Anything you've dreamed about? How would you like your life to be? What would you be doing? Would you have a man in your life? If so, what would he be like? Let us know what Liz's life is really like right now. What are your goals for the next 2-3 weeks?
Hugs liz f21
Me: 37 M: 14 yrs Separated 10/06; Filed for D 12/07 Life is good.
f21 
