Quote: It crossed my mind a few times that it wouldn't be a BAD thing for him to hear how great I'm looking these days, how happy I am, etc.
No, it wouldn't be a bad thing for him to hear how great your doing. Make sure your kids see your strength and positive outlook as well.
And you are right, when you act and make yourself feel positive you can be positive. Sure you have love in your heart for H, but that love can be shared in many ways with others who will appreciate your kindness, attention, etc..... There's other family members and friends to shower those feelings on.
Sometimes just being away from a H in MLC can be a huge relief. One thing I learned during the divorce was that I definitely didn't want H back unless he truly wanted to be with me and believed he'd be happier with me. I even said, if he was "on the fence" he might as well go through with it because I was really tired of all the BS.
Hopefully you'll find similar peace and strength. I do think you're on the way there...
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
