I am better, though I have my low moments. This morning, I woke up and watched Dr. Wayne Dyer's The Power of Intention which really improved my overall mood. And then I spent the afternoon with a bunch of friends who kept telling me how great I look (lost a lot of weight!) and how they are so happy that I am happy again. I really put on the smiles and tried to have a really positive, upbeat attitude. And you know, the more I did it, the more "real" it felt. Before long, I really was happy to be out -- even though these friends are all friends of my xH's, too. It crossed my mind a few times that it wouldn't be a BAD thing for him to hear how great I'm looking these days, how happy I am, etc. So, maybe that'll work in my favor somehow.
I still can't seem to shake this weird feeling that it's NOT over, though. I mean, I should just believe it is -- after all, the papers will be finalized within just a few days. But there's still so much love in my heart for my xH and I still keep hoping that he's going to miss me someday soon.
