I don't know about bravery or strength -- I was thrown into this and did what any of you would do. You just pull yourself up out of the mire and get on with the business of living.
I still have bad days, bad moments...I'm sure I will for quite some time. They are not as painful as they were last week and that gives me hope.
My xH has been calling a lot more frequently. He's called about twice a day since Tuesday. He doesn't leave messages usually (I think he did once). I have not really called him back. I have called his voicemail service and left a message without calling him. We have not spoken directly since Tuesday when papers were filed.
I went over the papers today again and noticed something was not filled out properly. I think the judge may reject the papers. I sent a voicemail to my xH to let him know so that he could try to remedy the situation (if possible). He called me back a few hours later and I didn't answer. He didn't leave a message, so I won't be calling him back.
I guess it sounds like I'm playing games, but the truth is that I don't want to talk to him anymore. I would rather send messages or emails. I don't know why he insists on calling and not leaving messages. I think he must want to speak directly to me, but I can't imagine why. He probably wants to yell at me for something or other.
The way I see it is that he can leave a message with whatever he needs/wants. And I'll leave him a message to answer any questions he has. If he wants to speak to S4, he can say that and I will have S4 call him back without me being involved.
Anyhow, I just think it's kinda weird that he's called me more since filing the papers than he did for the last month or so.
