wow...Thanks sven..i needed that.. i just want to feel appreciated ya know...i want her to be thankful i hung around i guess...i do have goals and one of them yes is to get into shape...i too..feel myself fallin back into the same habits.but im using the excuse of my depression to make it alright..maybe im just waiting to see if she will stick by me and stick it out like i did...in the back of mind i think i only want to leave just to see if she would fight for me like i did her...if the shoes were to be switched..i think that is what im missing in moving forward..How important am i to you,and how far would you go for the love of your man..or would you just walk away and be to proud??/ Thanks for the replies again DeeJay