that does sound like a really sweet idea. Do you think she would figure it out? I really don't know if it would be good or not. I would also agree that getting a gift card would be better, I mean if you send a money order, how do you really know that she will use it the way you want her to use it? and who knows what the OM will try to convince her to use it for. I would pick a toy store or something like toys-r-us, they have everything practically and you could put in the santa note that this was a special giftcard for her to pick out something for the kids for xmas.
I also wouldn't ever let her know it was you, even if she brought it up, but instead say, wow-that is wonderful! I'm so happy for you. then quickly change the subject. then she'll always be wondering. Mystery is good!
with your fairytale, your really reminding myself of me. I was too focused on every little thing he did to try and figure out if he still cared or whatever. It only drove me crazy. I know it's so hard not to think about this stuf, and you want to make sure that what you are doing is right and working. I really truely believe that you need to stop worrying. You know deep down that you are becoming a better person, and that the person you were before wasn't really you. Eventually she will "get it" and she WILL want you back. So you just keep doing what your doing and concentrate on YOU. I think it would be a great time to get closer to God, maybe even find a good church to find some really supportive people. But I know your not very religious, I just like to see people be secure about their salvation, and it's usually during these times of struggles that they find it, or lose it.
I'm still praying for you.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
