Today is a new day!!

[S.T. _I Made It!]

Yes, I think it is a baby step. You have to look at all the little things, and try to get past the bad things. I think things are encouraging for you. And especially because YOU know that you have changed, but it's still not a complete change for you, that this is going to take a long time.

But in some way, this is a good thing. We want you to become the complete man that you were made to be. If you and your W get together too soon, it will be so much easier for you to fall into your old patterns again. The best thing that can happen truthfully, is that you become the best man that you can be and it is so ingrained in you that you will never go back to who you used to be (a person that really wasn't you, it was a person that you allowed to control your life, the angry person, the jealous person, who is the person you don't want to be and are getting rid of). Then, will it be perfect for your W to come back to you because she will know who you really are, the real man that has been hidden by all this anger all of these years, and your R will be much stronger and you can start a whole new R with her.

Of course your probably thinking, well thats crappy, I don't wanna WAIT!! SORRY

Now that my sitch is almost over (I hope!) I almost feel like it happened all too fast, and I wish it happened slower cause there are so many times when I think.. could it happen again? what if..blah blah..? etc. Of course I'm so thankful that my trial is over, and I really do hope yours will be over soon because it is soooo hard to go thru.

But you can do it!