Well today went okay. had some decent coversation with w. Called s6 to tell him happy bday, he said "guess what..I invited you". Wife is having a party for him this weekend and he says I'm invited, telling him I couldn't make it broke my heart. I kept myself from doing anything self destructive today but I'm feeling pretty down right now. What I wouldn't give for adam sandlers click remote right now...just to ffw through this pain part. I had done a pretty good job of detcahing but now I feel more attached than ever. THis is the most unfun roller coaster I've ever been on...the ride has been like 8 months or something, I've lost track.
