Sweetie, I know how bad the panic attacks can be...I am on Celexa and Wellbutrin SR...Lexapro did not help much and I swear I lost 30 pounds....15 of which came back! Ack! Gotta work out!!!

AID has a point about the decorations and the shopping, etc....you know, hon, if you don't feel like it...don't do it right now. Eventually you will be strong enough to go shopping but wait until you are ready for it...You are still in the thick of it right now and I am sure it is all you can do just to get up every morning. However, I caution you not to stay there forever. Take baby steps to get yourself out of this funk. Start new traditions as Aid suggested...I am doing that this year and I feel really good about it.

I know you are anxious for your "real" H to show up...we are ALL anxious for that...patience has to be your friend right now...find a way to be patient. I know, I know...easier said than done...

Hang in there sweets!

Vali

Aug '06: H moved out
July '08: H had a kid with the OW
May 12 '09: emancipation day

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller