I know what you're going through. I've been in that place of feeling like I"m just going to lose it. Like everythign I do or see makes me cry. It's hard to snap out of that negative, hopeless frame of mind. But you CAN do it. I think you're loosing perspective. Again, I say this becuase I've been there. When I'm really low in a funk, I just can't think clearly. I feel that everythign is hopeless. IT'S NOT!
I know it's hard to go into stores with Christmas music playing and decoratiosn everywhere. The first time I saw all the Christmas stuff in Target a few weeks ago, I had to leave the store. I got in my car and sobbed. But I forced myself to go back a few days later and face it. I bought all new stuff for my house. I decided to make new traditions.
You will find a way to snap out of it. And once you do, you'll see with more clarity and perspective. What are the little things in life that you like? For example, I just bought myself some new yummy coffee and also mint cocoa. I also bought a nice big holiday mug. So, I take comfort in making myself a big mug of coffee, lighting a candle and watching TV. Simple things. The more you fill your life with the simple things you enjoy, the more comfort you will start to feel.
I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. It won't last. You will feel better. It's hard to see it now, but it's true. Chin up.
