Sweetie, this will not last forever. I see myself in you...I have been sooooooo angry with H over his PA but eventually I have to let that go. I am not saying I am over it yet because I am not...but I see how pathetic she was and how she bamboozled my H---he was a fragile man---still is in many ways.
I think I am starting to get what BND is saying....you get more with sugar than with vinegar.
Sweetness, the affair with her will burn out. She is like a drug that he can't quit. Somewhere in there he is hiding. You just have to decide if you will stand and wait it out. Much easier said than done...trust me, I know....
I hope that you can get your meds to work for you and get the dosing that is best for you. I know what a rollercoaster that can be.
I think about you and how you are doing and I am sorry you spent Thanksgiving alone. Wish we could all get together and spend it together, us, our kids, our animals....and no one would be judgmental at all.
pws, you really are strong you know and you can do this if you want to. You will survive and you will get through this even if it feels that you won't. At the end of this journey you will be a better person.
Hugs, Valentine
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller