Thank you all for your kind words...it just seems so impossible right now. I do believe the alien theory.....i just wished they had sent back a little green man instead of someone looking like my H.....and yes I have thought many times how much easier it would be if he had died. Shameful as that is to admitt.

He was out today to get something.....he said I know you hate me, i dont blame you.....I didnt let him off the hook that easy....I said I will always love you, I married you for life....I am just sorry you feel you have to treat me this way. I am sorry you cant see what is really happening to you.

His paranoia is increasing...spewing included me having "spies" everywhere knowing what he was doing.....I am ruining his reputation by spreading rumors.....people are slandering him becuase of me.....i quietly pointed out he was slandering him self with his actions.....i got that "seven heads" look. That blank look I am sure you all know it.


Me 53
H 51
OW 25
Bomb may 06
left june 8/ 06
ILYBNILWY (twice!)
7/6/07 H wants to come home
7/21/07 H comes home
7/07 -7/08 long haul letting go of OW
now piecing in earnest