Quote: I have to meet with a lawyer next week...I am afraid he is gonna tell me divorce is my only option...I
When you meet with your lawyer be in command. Tell him what YOU want and what you are going to do...don't ask what you should do...
Ask how you do what you want to do...
Divorce is never an only option. It is a choice. You may choose it...if you do not choose and it still happens, it is not your divorce...it is your husband's divorce. As you said, he will always be your husband.
The running far away...yeah, I get that one. I'd rather you do that. For the MLCer it's going into the cave...and the LBS needs to do it too. I know you have responsibilities...but at the same time, find a way to retreat into that cave...a place of quiet darkness where you can just be a lone with yourself. MAybe a retreat weekend--get away cabin. Or maybe time each day set aside.
While your lost husband goes off in search of his Self...you have permission to do the same.
That was a good letter...you got a lot off your chest. You released it to the boards...now release it from your heart.
