Think of it this way. Years from now, no matter the outcome, you will feel so bitter and resentful, to YOURSELF, for letting all this time in your life slip past you. Time that you can spend living your life. LIving each moment, each day. Yes, what H is doing is terribly unfair. What is even more unfair is how it is seeping the life from you, how it is wasting your moments. That is NOT his fault. It lies in YOUR hands.
Easier said than done. All of us here have had to scrape ourselves off the floor and move forward. In the beginning of my separation and even this mess, I had to push myself to go out, put a smile on my face, and I was so sad inside. But, I kept pushing. You know what. There came a magical day when I went out beaming...truly smiling and all by myself. I was content, peaceful, happy and just dying to have fun.
You will get to that point. And then it gets easier from there. Just keep pushing yourself. We are all here to tell you again and again to not let this consume you. Your H will do as he pleases.....it is the only way out of the madness. Besides....letting him go is the only way to see if he comes back is the right thing....not you agonizing over it.
It's all so angering, so unfair. True. But, at some point, you need to take back your life.
So, to echo BND....what are those goals?
What are the plans for this week? Did you eat meals today? Shower? Get out ofthe house? Take a drive? Take a walk?
